About a boy

This post was first published on 21st September 2006 at 01:55 AM on my previous blog

Dedicated to ‘A’… who loves more than he is capable of handling in his little heart.

I know a boy, lets call him ‘A’. We (me and my friends) thought he liked a girl called ‘M’. He went to meet her often, drove for miles and miles just so he could have a few minutes with her. Talked to her quite a lot on the phone. He would call her and she would call him, they would talk for long. Day or night it didn’t matter. They looked good together, a cute couple. But that’s what they were not. When we thought he was making progress and that maybe she liked him too. In reality it was quite the opposite. But… we did not know this then. We would talk to him all the time, bug him, encourage him and give him ideas on how to talk, to ask her out. He would shrug his shoulders, wave his hand and say,’tension nahi yaar’ (No tension friend). We always thought he was too scared.. called him a sissy… maybe even gay. Didn’t matter, this went on for months.
Then slowly but surely, the calls became fewer, the meetings rarer. He wouldn’t tell, no matter how much we asked. For hours we would bug him. Still no progress. This guy is like a fort. But still inside beats a heart !

Today, he broke. Not in a way that people do. In his own way. Little by little we put the puzzle together, he never liked her….

He loves her !

But she doesn’t. Or so he thinks. Why ? He wouldn’t say! Is he afraid that if he opens up he might break ? We aren’t dumb either. We have come to understand that she has become more and more distant as time has gone by. Why ? We don’t know.

So what are we saying to him now ? Arre dude…. DUDE ! Just go ahead and tell her. You think that its over. You have resigned yourself to this fate but let me tell you this today, YOU WILL FOREVER REGRET NOT TELLING HER HOW MUCH YOU LOVE HER ! YOU WILL ALWAYS WONDER WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN !

We tell him its better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all.

We tell him, go ahead, tell her everything. Tell her what she means to you, how much you love her. Don’t propose to her, just talk to her. Tell her but don’t look for an answer. She doesn’t haveta love you back and she sure can’t stop you from loving her !

His answer? Well… it seems nothing gets in his thick head ! But he has promised to think about it. What he will decide we know not. But are we wrong ? We think not !

Why is it that the person you love the most becomes the albatross around your neck? Come on ‘A’, we can’t let you sink. Think about it… this might be the defining moment of your life! Nothing to loose, only to gain!